Sunday, May 22, 2011

First Year- fourth phase

January-
The Lady comes back:  Bhagya came back to college with two handbags hanging from both sides. But the thing to be noticed was how she looked. The paleness was still there and a tinge of yellow on the face too. She had lost a hell lot of weight and looked weak. Her legs were paining and she had to limp. Even then, the bandit queen that she is, she refused to sit around in class and walked up and down the stairs to attend classes. Thanks to her stubbornness and I'd say stupidity, she was bed ridden for the rest of the time till exams.
Internals: We had our internal exams that month and everybody was in a frenzy to get notes copied and what not. We were also included in all this, though. Surabhi and I used to coordinate our studies over the phone and would stay up till 3am studying and talking on the phone. How we gave those exams, only we know. It is a subject not to be approached by anybody.


February- 
The cold:  This was when we all the tension started. Nobody knew the reason, nobody knew the cause. But everybody knew something was wrong. This was when everybody stared drifting apart. Some people who were close became distant and those who were distant became close. People were busy with their own lives, engrossed in something or the other. Nobody had the time to spare for friends. Some had work and were busy. But even they had time, they were not interested in keeping up with others. Some had their insecurities and inhibitions due to which they were keeping a distance from everybody else.
The little Pixie and me: This was the time when Shruti grew close to me. We used to talk about everything and anything in general. We used to discuss our problems, isuues and even studities with each other. I remember once talking to her from 1am till 4am, discussing something. That day we became closer than we had ever been. That was the moment when we trusted each other most. The next day too we talked throughout the afternoon and texting was like an obsession. It still is for me.

March and April-
Things remained as they were. No improvement between the five of us. Fantastic Five was just a formality then. Those who were close remained that way and those were now distant, went further back. Everybody knew about it, but nobody spoke about it. Those who did end up speaking their mind were thought to be over sensitive and "thinking too much about non-existent things".  Some liked to say everything is perfect when they were themselves in the midst of it all. Things remained this way. We had our annual department fest Bacchanalia during which things did not get better at all. In fact there was no scope to do anything or solve anything. Everybody was hanging out with different people every minute, trying to avoid each other.

May-
Things between the five of us went from bad to worse. For me the most painful thing was to see my best friend in college go away. Who even after being done with the job 'didn't feel' talking to us. And after putting in as much effort as I could, I gave up. I stopped sending messages and stopped even trying to talk on my own. Then one epic day we all decided to have a little chat about this and various problems, explanations and feelings came out. Everybody spoke about stuff bothering them and out came some outrageous things such as people being jealous of others for becoming closer. Anyway, to cut a sad story short, we cleared up all the misunderstandings.
since then on things have been undeniably better between all of us. Everybody is now putting in the effort and now hopefully things will get better, like old times very soon.

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